How many layers, veils, coats of distraction do we have?
It makes no comprehensible sense that we cry pangs of longing with distractions engulfing us.
He could play any six string guitar to the tingling of senses.
But strumming her six ribs was his masterpiece he reserved only for her
Some things have to remain sacred.
Love is being able to compose a masterpiece but leaving it only for the pleasure of one soul, despite knowing you could have any soul in the world by playing the haunting entrapment of its melody.
If you’re concerned about my inattentiveness, it’s not because I’m not present, I am. I really am here, but not where you’re looking.
I’m the spaces between words, the lines between paragraphs and the borders between pages.
I’m the gap in your front teeth, the space between your eyes, and the area from navel to neck.
I’m the valley between mountains, the breeze skirmishing between trees and the wind beneath eagle’s wings.
I’m the silence between thunder, the quiet before the storm and the deafening after lightening crackle.
Wherever you look, you won’t see me because you’re so used to seeing only what’s manifest in front of you.
I work in the shadows, I walk without name, and I cannot contain myself, but you still wouldn’t know it’s me.
I revel in this loneliness, the silence and the anonymity, because even if I showed you, you wouldn’t believe it’s me.
I’m nothing you’d expect to see.
It’s quite fine by me, thirty eight years of it and it’s the only way you know after a while.
I have family, I have a friend and I know a few people but they see it as insanity. I see their snarls, I don’t fit their moulds, and their suitability boxes aren’t ticked.
But when the shit hits the fan, they remember me. The guy who can fight, the guy who can write, the guy who’ll stand up and the guy who’ll shout.
The guy who knows no fear, who lones it year to year.
I’m that guy you want by your side down a back alley, next to you when you’re struggling to breathe and consoling you when life gets too much.
I’ve spent all this time alone so I can figure out the things you all struggle with because you don’t want to be alone.
Over eleven years ago I raised my heart on a temple step and asked God to make me invisible. I said it like a child wishes for superhero powers in their daily role play amongst peers.
I wanted out of this world; I wanted a suicide, not of the bodily kind but of being seen.
I must have been granted thousands of wishes and had endless supplications in my life answered, oblivious to them all as I take them for granted. But this one request I had was heard and it has been the best thing that has happened to me as people literally flaked off my life’s shoulders and withered away.
As I have mentioned in another post, I have a very high wall. Since then, only a few people have climbed over. I value those people; they’re courageous and courteous to my nature. I can count them on one hand!
Tonight, we feast on words.
Even though we are separated by worlds.
Your ages so tender,
So full of splendour,
You’re mind benders.
Battered, beaten and bruised,
Torn, healed, re-abused,
But, I remain amused.
At the possibilities ahead,
Just like you,
Open hearted to receive,
So raise the goblets in time,
And lets drink loves wine.
“The society that separates its scholars
from its warriors will have its thinking
done by cowards and its fighting by fools.”
History of the Peloponnesian War (ca 410 BCE)
And what has become of todays society?
Sheep common man
Women who tear their wombs out
Men who sever their genitals
Suck shit, reap what you sew!