I don’t have ball in my throat
I have a boulder in my neck
A mountain on my back
A planet in my prostate

My universe has always imploded
And now the residue is about to find its way out
Into streams of hurt and rivers of torture
This gap is so wide to walk around

How, how do I not fall
Not choke
Not crumble under the weight
Not gasp and quake

How ever do I knead the mend into my being
When the one ingredient needed to make this soul rise
Is you

How, can this colon heal
When I felt your absence all those years ago

I held on
I held on for so long

Do you know how hard it is
To use food as a bandage
And pretend all is well

Easy to swallow
Hard for it to find it’s way
And fill the gap of your attention being diverted

Cancer doesn’t just visit one randomly
Something has to die one way or the other
Perhaps lose someone
Until cancer becomes the intimate lover

Thus it embraced me with its claws
Gnashed it’s teeth into me thirty years ago
And I’ve worn its wedding ring ever since

Now we celebrate our vows
In sickness and in health, till death do us part

My colon has burst
My kidneys have rotted
I’m a man apart
Cancer, has my heart


Cancer lies II

cancer lies II

If it is hard for you to understand this one, to break it down, cancer is the body’s immune system caving in. No longer is health an option when DNA damage is so far that the the body becomes self destructive, rather than self healing.
In normal people, we are all born (when born in health) with an innate ability to self heal. Call it a hard coded program. Your DNA is the backdrop, your go to manual when all else fails.

Eating and lifestyle habits take you to such an extreme that your DNA gives up, the immune system looks for answers but it sees torn pages, missing pages, burnt pages or blank pages.

It then does what any mechanism without guidance does, it eats at whatever it can to survive.

The body performs suicide to try and maintain dear life without guidance for as long as it can. Cancer in effect is really the immune system trying to make you live as long as possible without the help of DNA, it is suicide, but it is love, an intimate physiological love.

The preposterous notion that radiation and chemotherapy can work is the single most inhumane hoax, lie and deception passed on society today.
Three supposed methods of healing in western medicine are chemotherapy, radiation and surgery and two above are actually cancerous in and of themselves.

To think you can wipe out an immune system and hope it regenerates whilst not addressing the underlying issue of DNA damage which is why cancer is even prevalent is beyond stupidity.

This is why it is no longer a hippy trend. No longer can the cronies with power, the medical industry lie to people. The natural healing methods are out there and people are curing themselves through lifestyle choices, proper technology methods and better eating habits.

I included technology above because one scientist in particular gets it, and has been curing patients for longer than thirty years! He knows that at the root, it is DNA damage and he has figured out how to help restore damaged DNA chemically and fast, curing largely incurable forms of cancer. The scientists will tell you it is impossible to both damage or change your DNA, because it suits their crux agendas. RUBBISH! Eat a diet full of destructive chemicals and sit on your arse and watch how in one year you write your death will.


Cancer lies – I


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It starts as a small fungus. It requires sugar. It creates a satiation and gluttony in the individual. Couple that with lack of exercise, cortisol, bad diet and any other method that starves the body of oxygen or the body’s ability to process oxygen, causing cellular damage unresponsive to oxygen, and then you get a beast that turns on itself. That beast is called cancer. It scavenges at all it can see to scrape molecules of oxygen. We know a state deprived of oxygen is acidic. Cancer, loves acidity. There are a multitude of things which contribute to acidity. Sugar, being one of them, lack of oxygen being another. Foods laden with certain macro nutrients even, drugs, pharmaceuticals and more. Lack of exercise and the body’s inability to digest oxygen also contributes.

As mentioned in a previous post, ‘ If you want to control a population, create nomenclature, unrecognisable by laymen.’

Cancer is not exempt from this. The medical industry is wrought with creating a vagueness of incomprehension around the disease, giving rise to the fog that already exists around it for most people.
If you’re somewhat slightly scientifically trained, and merely  aware of some physiological and biochemical basics, the literature and nomenclature is not hard to sift through.

I hope to share some of these things by breaking down the walls of mystery and exclusivity that doctors, medical industries and their lapdogs all but enjoy to the profitable demise of humans.

This is another series I want to start.
Poems, musings, thoughts and prose. Writing and anecdotes. Aphorisms and metaphors. All of it.

The goal is for it to gain traction in hopes for people who have battled through it or battling through it or know someone who has lost the battle, friends, family or just empathic people who recognise the travesty that has become this disease that seems so  prevalent nowadays, will be supported or support one another.

It will be laden with truths, with things that are hard to digest, things that challenge the status quo, some that agrees. Either way, the point is to make it thought provoking and have the public engage.

I hope you can share with your friends and family.


No wick left

burn it down2

I burned the candle
until the wick ran out.
All was left was molten wax.
I boiled the wax and shaped it again,
but my wick did not grow back.
I thought if I drilled the wax and prepared a hole
for the wick then it might return when it was time.
Alas the room remained dark,
the wick never returned,
my flame was diminished and so I remained.
Without fire, without warmth, without a burning passion
until what was inevitable came.
Fuck you cancer,
I’m going to cut you before you try me. No more wicks for me,
I’m going to burn the tavern down.
See who wins!