what’s a man to do
when he can’t stand what he sees inside
ironically turn further inward
flee from himself to hide
Because immersion does not become easier as you grow older, you have less head above water, less energy to tread water.
And we who drown, shudder at the idea of mattering, listening to the noise of the outside world with their self love mantras, because we know far better, because we can’t stand the sight of both the inside and the outside.
Who am I kidding, all this effort to show confidence and ability.
I can’t stand living in this hide, but I’m not an ingrate to having one, I don’t think I could live with total nakedness.