I swallowed my tongue long ago.
When I realised the world had no ear for me,
I let it speak in the pits of my belly.
Livid with the anger of loneliness,
It found companionship with my liver,
Teaching it how to fight the fight within.
My gut taught it trust,
Occasionally, my mind would send love letters,
Always a distant relationship.
Eventually my heart heard it’s echo’s
And turned it into etchings.
Still, my tongue lives in me,
Manifest,
On fingertips in poetry.
-W.E.
lonerloaner 
I love your blog. Your philosophical approaches to everyday emotions or topics are truly worth reading. Do you study philosophy or is it a passion?
Arouge
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Thank you. I appreciate you reading it. I guess if you look deep enough within yourself, slow down, you reach truths. Some find it hard to express even though they know it, others find it hard to recognise even of someone else expresses it.
I’m drawn to philosphical-spiritual-reason arguments that are not subject to the rules of the sciences as we know them in the western world. The point where philosophy bows and says, I acknowledge you Truth… I need not know the boundaries or limitations, your light is too much to deny. … I really don’t know how else to answer… Is it a formal study? No, can that be discounted though?
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I also find the philosophical- spiritual – reason arguments intriguing. I find they really transcend the scientific limitations that restrain our thought processes. Philosophy is not a formal study, I don’t study the subject either but I am very interested in knowing what it has to offer. I was just wondering if you did study it, because it interests me and I am always up for learning more. I remember reading one of your posts about the soul and I was so enchanted by it, merely because of the poetic prose and the reasoning’s behind your prose. I am so immersed in figuring out the workings of the soul!
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‘and of the soul, you know but little’ says God. So as vast as the ocean of knowledge that we have about the soul, that scholars, saints, sages, men and women of the inner have taught us or shared, it’s still nothing in the grand scheme of things. Imagine then what else there is to know? I agree, it need not be a formal study, it’s nice though when it takes a person who has studied formally to another realm where they abandon everything they’ve learned to communicate through a higher medium
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I think the unknown is evocative. It is just hanging there in mid-air, like the leaves on drooping trees. It is waiting for one to reach out and pick from them. There is so much to explore on this earth, both physical and spiritual. It is a challenge, but finding or meeting people with similar interests on taking up the challenge is always rare. I wish I had taken the opportunity to study philosophy. But, who says you must study it to take an interest in it? There’s the argument of free will again 😏
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There’s those that study and then there’s those that know. Those that know remain silent. Those that study, prattle. Who knows where on the spectrum we are.
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I guess, we’ll have to find out. We may be prattlers after all…
Good luck with your searching!
Arouge
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Maybe we’re closet philosophers and we don’t know it? Who knows? 😊
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Haha! Maybe we are! I guess, the truest passions are the ones that we conceal from the world. What the world does not see, is what means the world to each individual. Are you also interested in poetry? I find the two go hand in hand, very well together. Poets and philosophers = ponderers! 😏
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Yes…. Not formally trained again, but being a former musician, you develop an ear and heart for meter and balance. Couple that with a passion for reading and philosophical topics and the rest is history lol
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Oh! Yes! Of course, music and poetry mesh together too!
Do you play an instrument or sing?
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At the moment neither. Before drumming and dabbled with guitar and keyboards mainly for writing music. But I always wrote lyrics.
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Oooooh! The guitar always seems intriguing to me! It’s just the sound it makes, I find it so alluring. I used to write lyrics when I was younger…😬 not that they were any good! I love singing but I don’t do it for a living lol
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What types of Music pique you the most?
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Good question! False music. False expression. Any piece of art that is created that is not from within, that is not complex with all its passion. Creating art, one must feel the sweat of the hard labour. Sometimes you listen to a piece of music and you know it’s just there to impress and not there to exist for a greater purpose. But, in general, music I do not seem to find edible, from personal choice, is rap. I have nothing against it, it is an art form and if the lyrics have something to say, I value it. But I tend to lean more towards jazz, pop and soft rock. How about yourself?
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Everything. Anything that has a rhythm, melody, or harmony. I lean towards Jazz but do all my writing under the influence of Turkish – Iranian – Armenian music infused with ney flute or duduk. Lately a lot of Salar Aghili. I used to write for more grunge /rock. But played acid jazz/funk a bit as well. The classics usual Beethoven, Chopin, Mozart, Strauss, Bach etc. Another I seem to be drawn to lately for writing is Estas Tonne….. Never get bored of him. I have way too many genres I like. Rap is an acquired taste, and the poetic /political/activist stuff is a lot better than the frappe pseudo pop culture crap.
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Oh yes, I agree about the rap. Are you interested in Rumi’s poetry?
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🙂 Tremendously
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I have only come across his collected works so they are not in great detail. I remember hearing about him on the radio, and had to read his work. It was very sentimental and other worldly if that makes any sense at all. Do you know of any other poets like Rumi?
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Omar Khayyam. Read the 40 rules of love by Shams Tabriz, Rumi’s teacher. There’s a modern book (semi-fiction) written by Elif Shafak…. That’s an interesting take on her interpretation of their love for each other. Get Rumi’s Mathnawi if you want to read him in entirety. Rabia Al adawiya, Ibrahim Ibn Adham, Mansour Al Hallaj, all awliya that wrote or said things highly anecdotal, not intended as poetry but poetic nonetheless. Shaykh Abd Al Qadir Al Jilani his book, 15 letters…. Blow your mind. The Hikam of Ibn Ata’ Illah Asakandari. Anything by Ibn Arabi. Again, these are men and women not poets per Se, but their words incredibly poetic. If you want something a little more new age but utterly meaningful and poetic Khalil Gibran, the Prophet, broken wings, etc.
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Oh yes! I heard about Rumi and his teacher, unsure about the ‘real’ story, but I tend people can exaggerate things and presume. Humans have a tendency of doing that.
Thanks for list, I most definitely must start reading this over summer.
Where do you find them? I have great difficulty finding them in the usual bookshops, do you order them online?
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Online is easier. It’s. True, Shams and Rumi were infatuated with each other in a spiritual sense. They loved each other a love that drove Rumi to extreme sorrow on Shams’s passing but that sorrow manifest utter beauty in writing and a grand closeness to God that Rumi had in him all along but was buried beneath the superficialities of scholarly pomposity
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I like how Rumi describes his relationship with God. It is other-worldly, I like how it is projected in his verse. He fondles the idea of loving the divine, and he only presents the loving and caring side of God. It is a beautiful relationship between man and God. Religious philosophy is also interesting, I was reading a book written by a scholar about the Islamic Philosophy. I never finished it but I do hope to dip back into again.
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God says ‘I am as my servant thinks of me’. Someone drowning in LOVE, knows God this way. Sees nothing but that. Expresses their devotion through that. Someone who sees punishment, traps, hellfire and rigidity has only themselves to look at.
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God is abstract. God is who you interpret him to be. Hence, upbringing plays a huge role, if you are raised to fear Him, then you will always fear. If you raised with love and the love for God, you rise with every prayer and confession to Him. For he plays the greatest role of all, to give and take. There are some lovely quotes that I have come across about God’s love and they are mesmerising.
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This is a masterpiece..
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Thank you. Too kind
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