You were with him for eighteen years.
He treated you like you weren’t there.
The first year was his fault.
The next seventeen were your fault.
You have to accept your weaknesses and grow.
Drowning in your misfortune is your own fault for dawdling.
We can extrapolate wisdom from this idea for every topic imaginable and apply it.
Health, work, family, body image, mindset, intelligence, ignorance and so on.
If you want to improve your situation, make a decision. Good or bad, at least decide but furthermore, take action.
The habit of taking action will fine tune your acuteness in making the right decisions, but faster.
Nothing is as draining as loving someone and not being loved back. Let go…. send them on their merry way and be on yours.